Today we started our 'evening out' day. It is a day when I will go out with my princess, all by myself!. She has the choice of where to go but there is one rule; what and where we go remains a secret. She cannot tell it to anyone. (I fear that there will be comparisons if I ever have 'out days' with her other siblings)
So we headed to town at 5.35 pm and came back at 11pm. We had dinner at Puncak. (her choice, pic above is her eating her noodle), but she did not enjoy her oyster sauce chicken noodle as she felt it tasted 'different'. We did some secret things (cannot say cos its secret, but nothing illegal, safe to say that Sunday is Mother's Day)
By the end of the day I got her two gifts; a Taylor Swift platinum CD and a Little Miss Sunshine T-shirt from a pushcart vendor outside Isetan Orchard. We had ice cream, saw street buskers performing and contributed to their pockets, ran some errands, ran through underpasses and boy was she tired by 8pm!. For the most part I was happy.
The highlight of the evening, was when she spoke. I never heard her voice the way she truly sounds; without her brothers. She has been in the shadow far too long. But last night I saw her with her, putting on her pearlie white smile, her neatly coifed long hair, her well matched pants and brown crocs and I saw my little girl in a whole new light. She has grown right under my nose!!. (I can imagine it would be mascara, lipstick and perfume in a few years time). Listening to her that evening, seeing her move and looking into her eyes I saw my Dada for who she is. Sparks of her mother ran inside her. Strangely, through her I saw the world in a whole new different light through her. All the toil and sweat at work somewhat makes more sense.
I also realised that my girl has grown up, not in a physical way but in an emotional way. She is too embarassed to hold my hands. *sigh!* I guess thats a sign of things to come. But regardless of how old she is, she will always be my dot, my little one, my dada and she is uniquely herself. She has her own star and a great future with infinite possibilities. Through her my journey never ends. And when the end comes, I want her to know how important she has been to me. As much as I made a difference to her life, she did the same and more for me.
There are two Raudhahs in my life. One who is growing up quickly and the second in holy city of Medina. Both are as important. Both complete me in ways that I never could. One is here, now in the present the other is quite a distant away but never far from my d'oa. Insyallah, I will get to the distant Raudhah in my lifetime. But to this small Raudhah, I feel the world is a better place already!
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